I’ve always wanted a tattoo. My whole life, I’ve always thought about designs for a future tat.
Here’s some backstory: I was born 2 and a half months premature. Due to my being so dangerously early, a valve on the heart that normally closes at birth did not close in my case. At two days old, I had major heart surgery to close the aforementioned valve. The surgery was done through my back, and I was left with a wicked scar across my left shoulder-blade that actually grows as I do. Another scar, just under my ribcage on the left side, is from a chest tube from my surgery.
These scars are part of me. I can never rid myself of them. That shouldn’t suggest that I am ashamed of them, however. Quite the contrary, I try to embrace them, which is the reason I want to get tattoos near them.
Designs, however, are beginning to take a toll on my nerves. I can’t decide on what I want, exactly. For the scar in my side, I was thinking about getting an antique human heart diagram right above it. Something to signify my surgery, but also something beautiful.
As for the scar across my shoulder-blade, I’m constantly changing my mind on what I want. I know that I want a sort of geometric design, no colours, but the exact design is what stumps me. I really love Alex Grey’s artwork, and the designs he has in Tool’s album 10,000 Days are incredible. I don’t want a mural, though. Just something that’ll look beautiful and be… well, me.